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Reimagining the Birthday Card

This year, I was blessed with an abundance of beautiful cards: some painted or drawn; others hand made or coloured and more still that were delightful commercial ones. All were thoughtful and reflected the things I love. I kept them up for as long as was respectable (two weeks), admired them once more as I took them down and reread the messages, but still was sad to throw away such pleasing miniature art works.

From card to coaster

Which was when I got my brain in gear to think of how I could reuse them in some practical way. If I could work out some use for them, I could continue to enjoy them throughout the year. Wiping down my rather old and tatty drinks coasters gave me the first bolt of inspiration. What if I could cut out the required shapes, glue them onto the old card and make new coasters. Would that work? It was worth a try. After all, the joy of working with paper is that if it fails, it simply goes into the recycling bin and nothing but your time is lost.

**An assortment of cards** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

I made my first selection on the basis of beauty, colour coordination and image size. A coaster with Happy Birthday scrolled across it was unlikely to look very professional! One, a print of an artist friend’s work, didn’t quite work for the coaster size, so I selected another, joyful and quirky one.

If there were any skill involved in all of this, it only lay in selecting the right part of the card to cut and use on the mat. With a little twiddling, it was quite easy and if you were really intelligent (unlike me who has only just thought of it) you could cut out a tracing paper template so that you would know exactly what the image would look like rather then just eye-balling it.

**From card to coaster** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

The mats were placed face down on the back of the cards and I used a scalpel to cut out the squares as close to the mats as possible. I used a regular glue to attach them and a bone folder to ensure that they were absolutely flat. All that was needed next was several coats of good craft varnish and voila! New mats and happy reminders of my friends. They are surprisingly sturdy and now my husband is suggesting I redo the place mats. I’m thinking book covers might be fun…

The reimagined birthday card

Since a lovely friend’s birthday was coming up, I also needed to make a card for her. Could I recycle a card I had received in an imaginative way? One of my birthday gifts had been a fantastic paper cutting book and that gave me an idea. Using a very pretty floral card, I could make a backdrop for my paper butterflies. By layering the elements, it would give a 3D effect and I am rather partial to 3D.

Having carefully cut out the base of the card for the floral scene, I used chalk to colour the background, glued on the base and decorated with butterflies. For a June birthday, it seemed the perfect format for my greeting. ‘May your day be filled with sunshine and butterflies, friendship and flowers.’

**Flowers and butterflies** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

It is far from perfect, of course, but I hope my friend will forgive its failings and enjoy the sentiment behind it.

Birthday wishes to bookmarks

My husband is a terror with bookmarks. I sometimes wonder if he eats them. No sooner have I given him one for the book we are reading than it is gone, only to be replaced with a blade of grass or an old receipt. My cards gave me the opportunity to fix that problem. I would make a plethora of pretty bookmarks, leave them in a pile on the coffee table and never again would we have to search for the page we left off.

Aesthetics are all, so rather than just cutting strips of card and leaving it at that, I used my corner cutter to give them a more finished look and added complementary coloured ribbons (recycled of course!) to add a little flair. It took only minutes, but gave the results I was hoping for. This tiny project is a great way to use any greeting card and makes a pretty touch to a book you are giving as a gift. If you are able to coordinate the bookmark with the book – even better. Just make a pile of them!

**Book embellishments** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

The equipment needed for this project is again very simple. I use a scalpel and cutting mat, but if you have a steady hand, scissors will do fine. Again, I used my corner cutter to neaten the edges and took my bookmarks from the margin of the card and recycled the birthday wishes part. If you don’t have a single hole punch, stick your ribbon to the back or leave plain.

Passing on greetings

Good things should always be passed on in my view, so I decided that those cards which were suitable in size and design should be made into postcards for little messages. Sometimes, you just don’t have that much to say, so a postcard is the perfect solution.

**Bespoke postcards!** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

This idea is slightly modified from one I found in another paper art book. The author there used paperback covers (also good) and I used my cards. Once again, my corner cutter made itself useful. On the plain side, draw a few lines for the address and if you wish write, ‘postcard’ on the perpendicular. Royal Mail will post anything (I once had a friend who posted his girlfriend a banana skin and it got there.) Other countries might be more particular.

Once you begin seeing how to repurpose cards and paper, there really is no end to it. My new paper cutting adventure has just begun and already I am hooked. Other projects are in the pipeline, but for now, I think I’m going outside to enjoy the sunshine and be inspired by nature.

The Gifts We Bring

During my Quaker Meeting on Sunday, we had a reading from Advices and Queries – a sort of handbook for living. It read:

Live adventurously. When choices arise, do you take the way that offers the fullest opportunity for the use of your gifts in the service of God and the community? Let your life speak. When decisions have to be made, are you ready to join with others in seeking clearness, asking for God’s guidance and offering counsel to one another? (Advices and Queries 1.02 27)

I love the expression ‘Live adventurously’, but it was the next part that I have pondered over the last few days. One member’s comments made me re-evaluate the line, ‘When choices arise, do you take the way that offers the fullest opportunity for the use of your gifts in the service of God and the community?’

Good question.

What do we mean by gifts?

When we speak of gifts, most of us immediately think of the material. The stack of presents under the Christmas tree; the pile on birthdays.

**An abundance of gifts** Image: Ze Ferrari-Careto on Unsplash

And these gifts, thoughtfully chosen, carefully wrapped, have a great deal to offer in terms of making the recipient feel loved and valued.

Equally, financial donations to charities and good causes are essential to the running of the same. The material is not always lesser to the spiritual. We certainly need both.

The gift of time

I confess that I have always read this Advice as meaning to use our time wisely and when and where possible in the service of the community. Determined to use the skills (gifts) that I possess most effectively, I took a while to research where they could be best employed and ended up with a highly satisfactory match in Citizens Advice. I wrote about volunteering in a previous post ‘Every Little Helps’ https://whenlifegivesyoulemons.blog/wp-admin/post.php?post=3714&action=edit , so I won’t bore you with repeating myself here.

However, it was the member’s musings that prompted me to see that perhaps the greatest gifts we bring require neither money nor talents. They require only ourselves.

The member recounted the story of a psychologist talking to some elderly residents in a care home. He asked them to think of their memories, not in terms of what happened, but how they behaved and felt. And equally importantly, how others behaved towards them. The member didn’t elaborate further, but it got my mind whirring. What are our memories but an impression of events and feelings. What is it that makes one memory special and another depressing? The answer is how we and others behave. Our greatest memories might be of an unexpected kindness; our worst, inflicting cruelty (or having it inflicted upon us).

**I’d love to know what brought that outburst of joy. The briefest encounters are full of possibilities**. Image: Johann Walter Bantz on Unsplash

On our best behaviour

Though it is clearly impossible to behave impeccably at all times, it is worth considering how we might conduct ourselves so that each interaction is one that brings joy rather than its opposite. I thought about what my ideal person would bring (aside from cake, obviously) and came up with the following: love, friendship, listening skills, compassion, non-judgment, good will, generosity, openness, truth, positive energy and encouragement. Any one of the above would make the encounter something to be remembered and cherished; each one would make us feel a little more whole.

One could easily spend an entire post looking at each of these and they are worth pondering for a moment. Perhaps you have different criteria. Take a moment to think of what you value in good relationships. Then comes the hard part – how we express them ourselves.

The greatest obstacle for me is invariably my ego – as easily bruised as a ripe fruit. They are not listening to me/appreciating me/paying attention to me so why should I do that for them? Why indeed? The answer I keep having to remind myself is that even if they are unable to treat me as I would wish, there is nothing stopping me for doing it for them. Rest assured that I do not always succeed (and certainly not nearly as often as I would like). I am a work in progress.

Spiritual fruits

This weekend is Whitsun or Pentecost and clearly my thinking is in synch with the season, since it is celebrated as the time when the fruits of the spirit descended on the follower’s of Jesus. Clearly my list is not so far off the rather more ancient one of: Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-Control.

**Precious fruits** Image: Caleb Gregory on Unsplash

Free gifts

These are, of course, the greatest gifts that we can bring. We don’t need to be talented or rich or special in any way. We have all been bestowed with these. There is a lovely expression in Swedish that says, ‘My hands are empty, but my heart is full’ and there is little a heart full of love cannot achieve.

We need no religious beliefs nor affiliation to see that these gifts exemplify the best in what it is to be human. In these restive and uncertain times, I feel that they are needed more than ever.

So shower the world with your gifts and watch it bloom.

Where do we go from here?

At my age, you don’t expect to have to learn life skills all over again, but since the restrictions have been eased in this country, it’s exactly what I have had to do. It’s as if all my knowledge has atrophied like muscles from lack of use. Fourteen months of self-isolation, with only my husband and the dog for company, is a long time. Re-emerging into the world was bound to be a little tricky. However, the interesting thing is that everyone I speak to (and yes, I get to do that again) seems to be feeling the same way, even though their last year has been less confined.

**It’s a big world out there** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Getting together/Keeping your distance

The first, and trickiest thing has been deciding how close our social interactions should be. Do we keep 2 metres apart? Do we keep our masks on? Do we allow a touch or a hug? For the last year or so, all social interaction has been dominated by the niggling fear that your good friend may well be the vector of your demise. Viral infection is worse than living under the Stasi – an ill-placed sneeze or touch could land you in the hospital, or worse, the morgue.

Though all my friends have now had both vaccinations and cases in my hometown are, of yesterday, down to zero, the edge of anxiety remains. Were we all to stay here and not have any visitors, we’d be fine. But the restrictions were barely lifted before folks were off to see relatives and vice versa. Even though the majority of the population have had at least one vaccination, that still leaves a large number with none.

**How I miss hugging my friends!** Image: Christiana Rivers on Unsplash

And I live in a resort. Most British people will be holidaying at home this year, which means my normally rather restrained seaside town will be bursting with tourists as soon as the summer proper begins. Of course, I can hardly blame them wanting a trip to the beach and a change of view, but it throws another level of anxiety into the mix.

Letting our guard down

When seeing friends, we have met quite normally without masks or especially distanced. I’ve even had the first people in my house. It’s been an exciting week. But it is also exhausting. On Saturday, I think I slept for about 15 hours – recovering from all the birthday visitors the week before. And to be honest, it’s not just the flurry of guests that has left me drained. I’m not quite sure how to be with people. I’m not sure others feel much better either. We are all terribly polite, or very prickly or even both. No one wants to offend, but no one wants to stifle their opinions either. Sometimes, I just want to retreat to the shed and hide. Lock-down all seemed so much easier.

As a friend said, then, we all knew what to do. Now we are like the unfortunate astronaut on a space walk whose tether has been cut. However, shed fantasies aside, we are equally desperate to see each other and catch up. My empty diary is now full and that too is adding to my sense of disquiet. Gone are the days of moseying down to breakfast, pootling about the garden and having dinner when hunger pangs made themselves known. Now I have to schedule my days, dress nicely, and plan.

I also have to drive. The peaceful, empty roads of lock-down are no more. Instead, they filled with a torrent of traffic, ambling pedestrians, parked cars and the inevitable road works. The briefest journey is an obstacle course that stretches my levels of concentration to the limit.

Finding our balance

**Balancing is always precarious** Image: JC Dela Cuesta on Unsplash

Since we have who no idea how long it will be before we return to anything like normal, we shall have to find a way to balance our old lives with our new. I confess that my enthusiasm to catch up with everybody and do everything that I have been missing over the last months was perhaps ill-advised, but we all have to learn somehow.

What has helped me with the transition has been maintaining the schedule of yoga, meditation and breathing that I began seriously a year ago. It means getting up earlier than I would like and getting downstairs later, but without it, I’m not sure that I would have been able to cope at all.

While everything is still in flux, maintaining our rituals, whatever they are, becomes even more important. We cannot balance on thin air.

What the future holds

The future, by definition, is unknowable, but we can aim to make it a good one. For me that means doing all I can to keep safe (thus avoiding cluttering up the hospital) and being mindful of the well-being of others also.

**Consulting a crystal ball** Image: Joshua Woroniecki on Unsplash

With all restrictions due to be abolished in the next few weeks, we will have to ‘self police’ when it comes to living as fully as we can and as securely as we can. It was indeed easier when we were told exactly what we could and could not do. Now we have to negotiate that tricky social territory of those who are in the nonchalant, ‘It’s all over’ camp and the ‘Will my vaccine actually protect me?’ one.

My health complications have not miraculously disappeared, so I shall have to tread very carefully as the weeks unfold. Like everyone, I want to move forward with confidence and pleasure in all those social interactions that we took for granted in the past. But, I shall have to have the courage to say when I do not feel comfortable. And I plan, as far as possible, to meet up outdoors. I shall have to learn not to apologise when I have to put my needs first nor to be coerced by more confident (and healthy) friends. I shall have to listen, too, to those who are more anxious about the future and respect whatever decisions they make – no matter how timid or unfounded their fears may seem.

If we do this right, where we go from here should be a wonderful place. Imagine a world where people listen to one another; respect each other and act with the interest of everyone’s well-being at heart. It may be a dream, but I for one think it is one worth pursuing.

The Darling Buds of May

**Apple blossom** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Wandering about the garden and admiring the blossoms and new buds, I could not help but think of these immortal lines. Many of us will have studied this sonnet in school, but I think that it is worth revisiting. Whilst Shakespeare was clearly writing a very flattering portrait of his patron, he also touches on some truths that might aid us in these uncertain times.

Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer’s lease hath all too short a date;
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature’s changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow’st;
Nor shall death brag thou wander’st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st:
   So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
   So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.

William Shakespeare

**A surviving tulip** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Rough winds

As in many parts of the country, the beginning of the month was marked by extremely high winds. We live at the top of the hill, so their force is felt even more strongly here. One night, we wrestled in the garden furniture and retreated to the safety of our home. The next morning, our beautiful swathes of red tulips were no more – only the slender stems that had supported them. The lawn was covered in blossom confetti and the trees, so richly dressed the day before, were naked save their vibrant, unfurling leaves.

The same happens every year. Our fruit trees entice the pollinators with their delicate blooms. The wind decimates them. And often life seems to behave in the same way. No sooner have we found our perfect place, than something comes along to destroy it: an ailing relative, our own health, life struggles.

Yet, more often than not, during the brief spell of their existence, the blossoms are pollinated and though the flower may be gone, the fruit is set to grow and thrive. The previous decade of my life has felt more like a hurricane than just rough winds. At times, it seemed that there was nothing more that could be stripped away. Only somehow, like the blossom, I had been ‘pollinated’ with a sense of acceptance and gratitude; that despite the storms of life, there is so much to live for. It is only when we are challenged, sometimes to the very limits of our being, that we can grow. My mind is much calmer now than ever before and equally, I have never enjoyed the natural world in all its guises so much. Though cold and rain are not my favourites, they only whet my appetite for spring and they are as vital to nature’s cycles as sunshine.

**Clematis** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Every fair from fair sometime declines

May is the month of clematis for me: that gorgeous, bountiful herald of summer. After months of anticipation, the buds finally open and a cascade of flowers appear. But they do not last long – a few weeks at most. Like all beauty, it is transient and all the more precious for that.

In Japan, the cherry blossom festival (Hanami), was derived from earlier tree worship. Emperor Saga (reign: 809-823) is attributed with establishing the more modern celebration in which flowers were admired, poems written and picnics enjoyed outdoors. And the idea of transience is at its heart. The flowers, like life, are short-lived. Here is a charming set of haiku to give you a flavour of Hanami.

Drinking up the clouds
it spews out cherry blossoms –
Yoshino Mountain.

Wind blows
they scatter and it dies
fallen petals

Petals falling
unable to resist
the moonlight

Sakura, sakura
they fall in the dreams
of sleeping beauty

Josa Buson

**Ornamental cherry** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Nor shall death brag thou wander’st in his shade

Though we cannot, like Shakespeare’s muse, be immortalised in his verse, our brief lives do not end with us. Perhaps we have children who will pass on our genetic code; perhaps we have positively touched the lives of others and they revive us each time we are remembered. For though our transient state is sometimes frightening, it is no different from the cycles of the seasons.

So what can we take away from this? First, surely, is seize the day. Enjoy life’s bounty while you can. Second, for all our incredible intelligence and technologies, we are still carbon based life-forms. In the same way that energy cannot be destroyed, only transformed, matter too is not destroyed but only reconfigured. So that even when our physical being ends, and our composite parts are broken down to their atoms, we will not disappear but rather recombine to make new, living things. Who knows? Perhaps the atoms that make up me will join others to make spring blossoms of the future. I certainly hope so.

**Floral reincarnation?** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

The Amazing Power of Plants

Sometimes I wonder if I was an Italian in a past life, as I seem to be excessively interested in food. So, even though plants are amazing in all their forms, today I shall be looking at how putting them at the centre of our meals can improve our nutrition and our health.

For many years now, scientists and governments have come to see the value of a plant rich diet. In England we have 5-a-day; in Denmark it is six. Since six in Danish is seks (pronounced sex) the government health posters would read something like: Have you had six today? It was certainly one way of getting folks’ attention. Yet, even six portions is probably not enough. Seven would be better and France recommends ten. For an in-depth view as to what and how much you should eat, check out the BBC news article here: https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-26818386

**Eat your greens!** Image: Dose Juice on Unsplash

For those with health issues, especially autoimmune ones like MS, diabetes and cancer, increasing your intake of fruit and vegetables becomes even more pressing. The Overcoming MS diet is essentially plant based and it has brought me tremendous gains when my condition would be expected to deteriorate (it is a progressive disease after all). My good friend Elizabeth has diabetes and after radically altering her diet to a mainly plant based one, she has had startling improvements in a mere six months. In addition to losing a good deal of weight, her measures for diabetes have plummeted from 386-90 and her A1C levels have gone from 13 to 8 (someone without diabetes would be between 4 -5.6). This is fantastic news and she looks and feels terrific.

But you do not have to be unwell to start. All the health information I’ve read suggested that a mainly plant based diet can help you avoid many common ailments, and prevention is always better than cure.

Not everyone will be as quick to adapt as my friend and I confess it has taken me some time to gradually build the number and variety of fruits and vegetables I eat. Even when I was a regular vegetarian, I would often struggle to reach five. It may sound crazy, but with cereal for breakfast, a sandwich for lunch and a hot meal containing vegetables with two vegetables on the side, even adding an apple and a glass of juice, I barely made it. So how can you increase the amount of the good stuff you eat?

**Elizabeth’s creamy sweetcorn soup** Image: Elizabeth Harris

Sneaky vegetables

The simplest way to get lots of vegetables is in soups, salads and smoothies. Soups are a fantastic way of adding all sorts of things surreptitiously; this is especially helpful when you are dealing with picky eaters. Once you have blitzed your soup, who is to know that it contains dreaded onions? Smoothies work in the same way: carrots are sweet and can be added to fruit smoothies without affecting taste, as can celery and cucumber. Starting with sweeter, milder flavours is a good way to begin. If making mashed potatoes, add carrots and swede to make it more delicious and nutritious. I have started adding frozen peas to my rice and it tastes all the better for it. Once you make the decision up your vegetable intake, it is simply a matter or deciding where to put them. Just adding an extra vegetable to your plate with your evening meal is a great way to start.

Herb salad

One of the problems with cooking vegetables is that it breaks down and destroys many of the valuable nutrients contained within, especially vitamin C, so if you do want to cook them choose the speediest method using the least water – like steaming.

Better still, eat them raw. Salads are an excellent way to enjoy raw foods and they certainly don’t have to be boring. When Katherine of Aragon brought lettuce to the Tudor court, she probably had no idea that she ringing the death knell of the super salad. The items most of us associate with salad is rather flavourless lettuce, tomato and cucumber, but a salad can be much more than that. In Medieval times they had the right idea in making their salads a cornucopia of herbs and leaves. This herb salat would contain a multitude of flavours and textures. Even better, they can be prepared for most of the year and not just summer, since many herbs flourish in all but the coldest weather. Herbs are also easy to grow and simple to maintain.

**Variety is the spice of life** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

My herb salad above contained: radish leaves, thinly sliced leeks, mixed lettuce leaves, marjoram, sage, parsley, mint, black kale leaves and flowers, celery, rosemary and purple sprouting broccoli – all from the garden. Putting aside the special properties of herbs in aiding our gut health, the sheer variety of plants used here is important. The greater variety of vegetables and fruits you consume, the more likely you are to capture all their health benefits. Eating five apples a day is not the same as eating five different fruits. One way to gage if you have sufficient variety is to see how many colours are included on your plate. Ideally, you want to have a rainbow of hues.

Dress to impress

A good salad doesn’t need a lot of adornment. A simple dressing will do. I like a French dressing with a twist: equal quantities of good olive oil and balsamic vinegar, a spoon each of grain mustard, honey and fresh ginger paste. Shake and serve.

For creamier salads and slaws, use a vegan mayonnaise or you can make your own. Soya yogurt and creme fraiche also make wonderful dressings. I tend to mix half mayo and half yogurt to reduce the fat content. Then add what you fancy. Some of my favourites are pickled beetroot (drained) and chopped apple; celery, apple and walnut; and sliced cabbage, carrot, onion and raisin. If you are feeling extra virtuous, grated carrot tossed in lemon juice is fabulous.

A kitchen garden

Ideally, you want your vegetables as fresh as possible since they deteriorate quickly after picking. The good news is that you don’t even need a garden to enjoy fresh picked greens. You can grow them on your window ledge or worktop. A friend sent me a bean/seed sprouter kit for Christmas and after a little initial bemusement, I began to get the hang of it. The container sits by my sink so that I remember to water them twice a day and the results are delicious and almost instantaneous.

Fenugeek (left) and radish leaves (right) make interesting flavour additions Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Most supermarkets sell living herbs in pots, and by keeping them watered and making sure a few healthy leaves are left, you can get multiple servings from one plant.

Take it slow

Introducing a large amount of vegetables and fruit into your diet at once is likely to make you feel worse before you feel better. If you regularly eat pizza and ready meals, it is important to introduce things slowly. After all, your stomach is not used to processing so much fibre. Adding more fresh ingredients a little at a time is the most sustainable approach. As you get used to it, keep adding more until the majority of you diet is plant-based. It won’t be long before you see the benefits.

But most of all, enjoy. Make mealtimes something special; take a moment to arrange your food in pleasing ways. We crave beauty and attractive food just tastes better.

**Dessert as still life** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Every Little Helps

Last Saturday I received my second inoculation, which means that in a couple of weeks’ time, my life can return to something like normal. However, that is not the subject of this week’s post; instead, it is on how the kindness of others has made my brighter future possible.

The centre where I attended was a spacious community hall that had been carefully laid out to ensure the maximum number of people could be vaccinated in safety. So far, so normal. What was interesting though was that the vast majority of people working there were volunteers from The St John Ambulance service. They were friendly; they were efficient and they were perfectly trained to both administer the vaccine and direct the endless traffic of patients. What wonderful folks they were: giving up a sunny Saturday to deal with a not always appreciative public. The more I thought about it, the more I realised how precious their contribution was. By giving their time freely, they would save the government a substantial sum; by attending in the place of medical professionals, they left them free to care for their patients in the hospital and the community.

Though no-one wishes to live through a pandemic, it has highlighted what a genuinely great society we live in. Of course, the nightly news will showcase riots and bad behaviour, but what it is not being reported (except occasionally) is the staggering numbers of individuals who have made efforts big and small to help us get through this together. Pre-pandemic, around 23% of UK adults volunteered at least one hour per month. Since lock-down, according to The Guardian, we have added another 10 million who are mainly doing informal volunteering such as grocery shopping, collecting prescriptions or helping support services.

Good for me

I have volunteered, in one way or another, most of my adult life. And I would be the first to declare that whatever I am able to contribute to the general weal, is more than made up for in what it gives me. This is not in making my CV look better, but in giving me opportunities to learn and grow. When I first had a baby, I was rather overwhelmed by the intense loneliness that an at home mother feels. Volunteering with the National Childbirth Trust and later a mums and toddlers’ group allowed me to meet with like-minded souls and to stretch in ways I’d never imagined. My volunteering roles not only allowed me to try new things such as running a large event, writing for a newsletter and chairing a meeting, but it gave me the chance to say thank you to two organisations that literally saved my sanity.

**A child entertained and a cup of tea**. What more can a new mum ask? Image: Markus Spiske on Unsplash

Since then, I have been involved in many more organisations including Greenpeace, and for the last six years, Citizens Advice. The latter has been especially rewarding and I hope to continue there for as long as I am able.

Good for all of us

Personal benefits of volunteering aside, the sheer volume of free service offered in this country makes a significant impact on our taxes by reducing them. The estimated value of volunteering, with 19% of the population offering 3 hours a week, translates to £350 million per week. Eastbourne Citizens Advice alone accounted for a public benefit of more than £4 million in 2017-2018 http://www.eastbournecab.co.uk/eastbourne-citizens-advice/impact

Volunteering also allows for groups to cater to needs that the government has neither time nor resources to provide. It enables us to fill in the gaps in services from suicide prevention to protecting endangered species. Though the main beaches on the seafront here are cleaned beautifully and regularly, the less frequented ones are not, so beach cleans come into their own. This one took place on a rather more exotic location – but the outcome is the same.

**Protecting the beaches and the oceans** Image: Brian Yurasits on Unsplash

Given with love

When discussing this topic with a friend the other day, she mentioned that places like France expect the government to do all these things. Perhaps they do and there is a lot to be said for not relying on charity. However, I do believe that when people offer their time freely and with the desire to help others, they do so (in the main) with more joy and enthusiasm. When this is not the case (and we’ve all seen it), the person is either volunteering as a result of moral coercion or for entirely the wrong reasons such as wishing to appear good or to gain status.

When we give our time and energy with love, however, that is when the magic occurs. The kindly neighbour dropping off groceries for someone shielding not only provides their material needs but gives them a brief opportunity to reconnect with society. The person on the end of the telephone working for the Samaritans may literally save a life.

Every little helps

And the brilliant thing about volunteering is that there is something out there for absolutely everyone. Though my MS has meant regular employment is not possible for me, the flexible work I do for Citizens Advice is. I am passionate about social justice and was able to find a very perfect niche where my skills married with the requirements of the research and campaigns team. It took me a while to find it, but it was worth the wait. Charities are often very large organisations and need every kind of skill, so persevere until you find the one where you can contribute the most.

**Whatever you do, do with love** Image: Tim Marshall on Unsplash

Perhaps you do not wish to be tied to regular volunteering, well, there is plenty out there in the informal sphere – collecting prescriptions, signing up for the occasional beach clean or simply helping out a friend or neighbour. A formal arrangement is in no way vital.

And if work and family are literally taking all your time, there is no need to feel guilty that you are not volunteering as well. We cannot do everything. But we can, I believe, do something. With time limited, we can help the environment by buying organic fruit and vegetables or plant some bee friendly flowers in the garden. We can listen with empathy to a friend in need. We can send a card to someone who needs cheering. The world is ours to mould as we would wish it and every little helps.

Confessions of a Paperphile

Of all the materials available to mankind, none beats paper. It is the medium for books, for art and for writing: pretty much everything I hold dear. Like water, it is almost ubiquitous: like water, it holds little value until it is scarce.

Indeed, in the past, paper was the preserve of the rich, but now it is so cheap that it is used and thrown away without a thought. This post hopes to rectify that. I’m not suggesting that you hoard every scrap but that you come to love paper, as I do, for the infinite ways that it can bring you joy. When planning this piece, I realised that I would have to limit my enthusiasm to just one aspect of paper use and I have opted for the three dimensional. Paper, like plastic, can take an infinite variety of forms, but unlike plastic, can be safely and easily recycled.

**Paper snap dragons** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Inception

My paper obsession started in childhood. Television was rather more educational than entertaining then and I remember finishing a programme and rushing off to find some old newspapers to make palm trees. They did, sort of look like palm trees, but the final result didn’t matter too much – what did was the pleasure of creating them. And unlike other toys, they didn’t clutter up the house before being relegated to the back of the wardrobe; they were created and returned to the bin.

When I was a little older, the playground craze was for snap dragons (see above) – a simple origami form that opened up to reveal your fortune. Why nine-year-old girls trusted their fates to such inventions is by the by, but it did introduce me to the idea of origami, which I have loved ever since.

Keeping it simple

What makes paper play perfect for children is that the materials are cheap and readily available. Though my paper play has become a little more sophisticated over the years, my basic materials haven’t changed much at all. I’ve added a scalpel, a bone folder, a cutting board and specialist ruler, yet all I really need are scissors, paper and glue.

**Everything you need** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Once one’s paper obsession begins, it is quite hard to keep restrained. After all, there are so many amazing papers out there and costing little more than a cup of coffee. I try to keep my collection under control by getting only specialist origami papers and the occasional Flow paper book. Leafing through my paper books alone can bring hours of entertainment, crammed as they are with paper projects of every kind. Below are some little houses, pre-printed, that I made up as 3D models.

A tiny project to amuse for a little while Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Art for free

Yet, enjoying making art from paper, doesn’t require expensive paper books or Japanese origami papers, absolutely any paper will do. Old newspapers, magazines, music paper, wrapping papers and old books can make the most elegant pieces. I often cut up old calendars for their beautiful images and then reimagine them as cards. The art of collage, that I have yet to master, thrives on found images reconfigured. Book lover that I am, I adore things that are made from old books. These tomes can be made into clocks, jewellery, decorations, sculptures and even clothes. It has become its own art form with exhibitions of the most stunning creations made from whole books to the pages of old telephone directories. The delicate and almost ethereal qualities of paper only adding to their charm.

Having dug out my Playing with Books edition, I decided to make some spring blooms in honour of the season. An added advantage is that I shan’t have to water them.

**Who needs silk when paper will do?** Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Inspiration

For me, the hardest part of any venture – especially creative ones, is getting started. What if I fail? What if my beautiful lily turns out looking like a turnip? (quite a few of my early attempts did). The beauty of working in paper is that every failure only results in a slightly more full recycling bin. Whatever time you have ‘wasted’ will have taught you valuable lessons about working slowly and carefully – rush with paper and it will rip. Sometimes, even when you don’t rush, it will rip.

Though working with paper requires absolute and methodical concentration, it generally does not take long. Making my granddaughter’s quilt took me the better part of a year; making my paper flowers, an afternoon. With only a few materials needed to get started, it is the perfect occupation for when you have a little time spare and want to achieve something rather than watch something.

But if you prefer paper play as spectator sport, there is no end of amazing content in books and on-line. Whatever you choose, take a little time to appreciate the paper in your life. Who knows, you may end up a paperphile too.

**Extreme origami! I think I need a bit more practice**. Image: Istvan Hernek on Unsplash

How to Eat an Elephant

**More than a mouthful** Image: NaHarai Perez Aguilar on Unsplash

I first came across the advice on how to eat an elephant (one bite at a time) many years ago when researching for my writing class. Of all activities, writing has to be the one where procrastination is king. I have read about successful authors arranging the pins on a pin cushion rather than sit down and start typing. (I confess, I have made numerous paperclip chains for the same reason.)

Procrastination is the thief of time
Edward Young

Yet, the advice really came into its own after my relapse in 2015. It went from being a rather witty way of encouraging action over procrastination to a genuine life-saver. Whatever gains I have made over the past six years – and there are many- I can attribute to following its guidance. And though I hope no-one reading this is facing the Everest climb of recovering from a major physical relapse, I do think that we can all benefit from adopting it in our lives. After all, action is empowering, procrastination is not.

A journey of a thousand miles starts with the first step

When I came home from hospital, I went straight back to bed. The lumber puncture to confirm my condition had left me with a pressure migraine that was utterly debilitating. A week later, I got up. My legs were wobbly as a foal’s and just as weak, but my husband had to return to work and I had a dog to walk.

A long, oftentimes painful journey then began. Physio was invaluable, and as the months passed, my walks became just a little bit longer until my elderly dog, Puck, was quite happy with his trip around the block.

**A walk a day keeps the doctor away** Image: Michael Kucharski on Unsplash

I still walk every day – now with a rather more active Hermione – and gradually I’ve been managing a little further. To increase my distance, I literally count lamp-posts and when I’ve overdone it, count them till I get home!

This breaking down of the task has made progress possible and brought the accompanying joy of success. Each lamp-post to me is a milestone, each extra few minutes a sign that contrary to the medical advice, even the most depressing prognosis is not always immutable.

A mouthful every day

This approach was not only invaluable with enabling me to walk again, but I have used it to increase my meditation practice, my brain exercises (including writing), physical activity and volunteering work. Friends have used this approach to start running using the Couch to 5km challenge on the NHS app. It is as simple as it is effective and the reason for this is put rather succinctly below:

Breaking tasks down helps us to see large tasks as more approachable and doable, and reduces our propensity to procrastinate or defer tasks, because we simply don’t know where to begin.

Melissa Gratias, Ph.D., workplace productivity coach and speaker.

Make a plan

A thousand mile journey would be a little pointless without a destination in mind. The same applies to any other activity we engage in. We are far more likely to succeed if we make a detailed road map of where we want to get to including stops for tea and rest. Knowing the direction we are taking will enhance our ability to focus and each little goal reached encourages us to continue further. Our bodies respond to success giving us little boosts to dopamine (the happy hormone) each time a significant stage is reached.

And it is up to us how large or small our markers of success are. Often I am working in single digits – two more minutes’ walk or five more seconds holding a yoga pose, but you may have grander aims.

How not to do it! Too many plans=too many distractions. Keep it simple. Image: Photo by Firmbee.com on Unsplash

The easiest way to chart your course is through writing it down. Engineers use sophisticated Gantt charts with each stage plotted with precision. The rest of us can simply make lists or note goals in our diary. Before I made my morning health activities a habit, I literally put them at the top of each page of my diary and ticked them off when done. They were all I had to do each day and once complete, I could get on with the other stuff.

Though our brains are incredible, they can only manage to process a few things properly at one time, so it is advisable not to put too many things on a list: 3-5 is ideal. It may be that all five are part of a larger project, and this is fine. When we focus absolutely, we work much more efficiently and are less prone to distraction. Unlike multi-tasking, where we tend to perform poorly and end up stressed and exhausted, this way of working keeps stress to the minimum. We do a micro task, complete it, get a feel good hit and are encouraged to do the next. Taking action itself keeps us in good spirits. Knowing we have something due that we have not yet started can almost paralyse us with despair.

Mindfulness in action

What I love best about this new way of working – microproductivity – as it has been perfectly coined, is that is fits with a more mindful way of living. Whereas in the past, I did each task with half an eye on the next one (or two, or three), this way I just do it. (Thank you Nike.)

I don’t do any tasks that are not necessary and only do them if I can see a purpose to it. Cleaning the kitchen may not seem inspiring, but I do want to keep some level of hygiene and I do want to be able to find what I need when cooking. When we think clearly about the purpose of the task, the act of doing it becomes less of a chore and more of a pleasure. If we can focus absolutely upon it, it can even become a meditative act. Simple, repetitive tasks lend themselves well to this practice.

**A chore or mindful activity?** It’s up to you. Either way, it needs to be done. Image: Grass-American on Unsplash

Time to begin

So whether you have a massive project or just a list of daily tasks, I recommend that you break them down into manageable, bite-sized pieces. It may take a while to perfect your method; it may even be a life-long project, but I can guarantee that it works.

Everyone will have their favourite approach and what works for you is what works for you. No one is going to check your style. And this is perhaps the most liberating aspect of this process – it is entirely hidden. All anyone sees is the end result, but as we work towards this, we can progress as crazily, as messily and as imaginatively as we wish. Chances are that when we do get to the finish line, just like the slowly but surely tortoise, we will be the winners.

Sources: Microproductivity blog.trello.com

The Three Chocolatiers

Easter and chocolate go together like spring and daffodils. So what better time to indulge in a little chocolate making than Easter Monday? General craziness meant that my husband and I hadn’t made our treat packed baskets and I was missing that indulgence. There was a solution; however, and like most of our solutions this year, it lay in doing it ourselves.

In an act of self-interested generosity, I had bought my husband a chocolate making kit for Christmas. (He had expressed interest and who was I to deny him?) Using YouTube as his guide, he made a batch of the best chocolate I have ever tasted. He made another and then this time, I asked to be initiated into this most eminently useful skill.

Ingredients are key

As with all things culinary, the better the ingredients you have to start with, the better the result. Get organic and fair trade if you can. I found mine online and, though not cheap, would hardly break the bank either.

Chocolate’s ingredients are surprisingly few: cocoa mass, cocoa butter, sweetener and salt. Any flavours you wish can be added, but the base is just that. The really complicated part of transforming a sticky bean to cocoa mass/butter has been done for you.

The equipment too, is very straight forward. All that is required is a heat-proof bowl, a pot, and a wooden spoon. As your skills progress, you may wish to invest in a marble slab for tempering the chocolate and a sugar thermometer for ensuring temperatures are just right, but we are happy with our less than perfect version.

Chocolate for beginners recipe

After a little trial and error, this is the recipe we went with. It makes a dark chocolate that is vegan friendly.

Ingredients

200g of cocoa butter

300 g of cocoa solids

1 tsp of vanilla essence

Pinch of salt

Honey and maple syrup to taste

Method

Place the cocoa butter in a heat proof bowl and sit on a pot filled to a quarter with water (to make a bain-marie). Ensure that the bottom of the bowl isn’t touching the water. Bring the water to the simmer and then continue to heat gently until the cocoa butter melts. Stir all the while. When fully liquid, add the cocoa solids gradually and continue stirring. Do not over-heat and do not let any water come in contact with the chocolate or it will ruin it!

When all is liquid, add one teaspoon of vanilla essence, a pinch of salt and honey and pure maple syrup to taste. You can use liquid sugar but we love the taste of honey with a little smoky note of maple. Taste as you go – you’ll need quite a lot – and when it is on the bitter side of perfect – stop. The chocolate will get a little sweeter as it cools, so err on the bitter side.

Adding flavour

This is the fun part and you are limited only by your imagination. Chocolate is one of those rare foods that goes with almost everything – it is the little black dress of cooking. If you wish to infuse your chocolate with a flavour such as peppermint, substitute that for the vanilla above. I love rose geranium, but if you wish to add herbal/floral extracts make sure they are food safe first. Also, add only a few drops at a time. The good stuff is very intense.

Chocolate pairs well with stronger herbs such as rosemary, delicate florals like rose and spicy flavours such as chilli. For ideas, look up a gourmet chocolate shop or play with what you have to hand.

Choices, choices Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Roasted nuts and dried fruits are always going to be good. In the batch we made we had: crystallized ginger and crunched ginger thins; dried white mulberries; date and mango and whole roasted hazelnuts. Personally, I think that really strong contrast flavours work the best, so perhaps avoid any insipid ones.

Get set!

Now your chocolate is ready for the moulds. We bought a couple on Ebay and used cupcake trays for the remainder. Moulds can be expensive and if you just want to give it a try without investing too much, gorgeous chocolate called bark can be made by simply smearing it thickly onto a sheet of baking paper and sprinkling the additional components on top.

A couple of moulds and some muffin tins works fine! Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Before pouring the chocolate into the moulds, we sprinkle our extra ingredients on the bottom. They will float up a little bit when the liquid chocolate is added to give a lovely texture. Err on the conservative side when adding the chocolate. Add a spoonful at a time and leave a little space at the top. (Otherwise, it sloshes chocolate all over when you move it and makes it difficult to ease out the mould. I know this, because that is exactly what I did on the chocolate bar mould!) Top tip: If your mould is on the wobbly side, place on a baking tray before filling, that way you can move it about with ease.

Now wait

This is clearly the hardest part of the operation – waiting for the chocolate to set. It takes several hours and patience is key. Ideally, place the chocolate in a cool part of the house away from pets. (Chocolate is poisonous to dogs.) Make a cup of tea, read a magazine and only a few hours later, check its progress. It should be hard and shiny(ish) on the top and pop out the mould easily if fully set.

Easter chocolates at last! Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

The joy of chocolate making is that it makes a lot. This recipe makes about one pound: that means plenty for you and plenty to share. If giving as a gift, it can be wrapped prettily in cellophane or bars can be wrapped in wax paper with a colourful paper sleeve. However you present it, though, it will taste great.

And the third chocolatier? Hermione, of course, whose contribution was to entertain us while we cooked.

Begin. Again.

Easter, like all the world’s spring festivals, is a celebration of new life, of second chances. New beginnings are both exciting and challenging times. We are moving into unchartered territory and the question remains, How shall we approach this? Over the last year and especially the last few days, I’ve been thinking hard about how I would like to proceed in this ‘brave new world’. Things won’t be normal for ages and perhaps never will be, though I can’t say I am sad about that. Our old lives were crazily busy and unsustainable. If this last year has given us anything, it has been the opportunity to hit the pause button on life and reset it. This is an incredible gift, which I doubt will come again. So as we enter into our new ways of being, how will we define them? What structures will we give our lives? When planning this post, I came up with way too many ideas to address here, but I have managed to condense them into five categories – ways of living – that will be good for me and the planet. I doubt I will succeed all the time, but that is the whole point of new beginnings. They can occur once a year or every dawn. If I fail, and I will often fail, I shall just begin. Again.

Time to leave my ‘lock-down’ egg. Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Living simply

This last year, managing on a very much smaller budget, has meant that living simply was as much a necessity as an option. Yet, bizarrely, our lives were infinitely richer. My husband and I finally had plenty time to spend together; we tended our garden and were rewarded with a bumper crop; we were grateful for everything we had. We had enough.

With my husband getting back to normal working hours, our income will increase once more and the temptation is to return to the convenience that purchasing power gives. However, I am determined to keep living simply at the heart of all I do. I want to make my own bread; I want to make meals a time of celebration as well as nourishment; I want to reduce the demands put on the planet through buying less and up-cycling more.

While doing the obligatory cupboard cleaning, I was appalled at just how much stuff we have. From now on, I’m going to take care to look and see what might serve a purpose before rushing off to buy something new. Often spares languish at the back of the cupboard while we shop. Often, a little imagination enables us to reuse or upcycle objects that might otherwise be thrown out. It is a creative act and one which, for me at least, is more pleasure than chore.

Living slowly

Living frantically didn’t do me any good. Both my serious illnesses were triggered by stress. Slowing down, taking time to simply be, to smell the flowers and to focus mindfully on each task has allowed my body to heal in ways I didn’t think were possible. Tempting though it might be to start rushing around again, I can take a hint.

Take time to enjoy Nature Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Ironically, slow living is not boring living. Time doesn’t drag but glides seamlessly from one hour to the next. Slow living is about being rather than doing. And when we live within time, it becomes fluid. The task takes the time it needs to take, no more and no less. Time is no longer the enemy, but rather the liquid medium through which we work.

Living creatively

Time and limited finances have both contributed to living more creatively. There are hours in the day without appointments, so I can doodle and create for as long as the dog is willing to sit still. Apart from childhood, I have never done so many crafts and art projects. They are hardly professional, but they are entertaining. With the help of YouTube, one can learn almost anything and that resource is available to everyone and free.

Stretched finances means that making gifts and cards is the sensible option. Though I can’t offer the most expensive presents, I hope that I can offer something made with the person in mind – a sort of economy bespoke. And when I do purchase something I think the recipient would love, I take time to wrap with care. For my own part, the most precious gifts that I’ve received are ones that someone has made for me. They are the ones that are kept and cherished.

A butterfly card for a butterfly lover! Image: Karen Costello-McFeat

Living flexibly

Just as there are groups for recovering alcoholics, I think there should be support groups for recovering control freaks. In the past, my page to a day diary was crammed with entries: places to be, things to do, appointments and work. A blank page would have left me disoriented. My life was scheduled from sun-up to sundown. And heaven forbid if plans had to be changed! Like removing a brick from a giant Jenga game, one loose block destabilised the whole. Well, the tower did fall eventually and I have been assembling the pieces ever since. Except now, I do not feel the need for a huge tower – any interesting formation will do.

Picking up the pieces Image: Naveen Kumar on Unsplash

The pandemic with all its shifting rules, uncertainties and cancelled trips, has made planning a fool’s game. So now, in proper Zen fashion, I take each day as it comes. Accepting that one really has very little control in life, though initially horrifying, is hugely consoling. Though I still have tasks I’d like to do each day, I try to ignore the pressure to complete by some arbitrary time, but rather work on the assumption that they will get done. They do not always get finished on the allotted day, but amazingly they are almost always realised. There are advantages to having a shorter list.

Living socially

For me, there is no greater pleasure than the company of those I love. Lock-down has precluded face to face contact, but it has not impeded my enjoying friendships in other ways. My telephone schedule has meant that we are all up-to-date with each others’ news; I write letters and emails more often and at greater length; I have started regular video calls with a friend in the States. I intend to maintain all of these plus, I hope, the joy of personal interaction. Separation from my children in the States is my only real sadness: Skype is only a partial substitute for a hug.

And if these strange times have taught us anything, it is just how much we need and depend on each other. When life’s demands become more urgent again in the coming weeks, the trick will be to remember where our priorities lie.

A roadmap for life

I hope that this long weekend will give you an opportunity to evaluate what you would like life to be like in the future. Elaborate plans are not necessary, but I do think deciding on your objectives and how you might achieve them is helpful. Whatever you decide, I hope it brings you joy.